Everything changes

Everything changes in a year, a month, a week or even a day. It hurts really bad when a person yesterday made you feel special but today made you feel like shit. I don't really know how all these feelings have been developed but i know i definitely need a very long time to get all them off. All those words and actions were really the most heartbreaking memories. I don't really know how to deal with them. Maybe you did not mean it the way i assumed but i treated it real. This is why it hurts real bad when we're like this now. I hate how the things are like now. I guess there is no more 'pushing' and 'pulling' because you are distancing away. If that is what you want, i will do it too. Lets just keep this friendship going and only friendship. I will get over it soon because it isn't any fault of yours to make me feel this way. Maybe i am just not worth or you actually realise we aren't meant to be. All these thought affecting me crazily but i will just keep it in. How i wish i could tell all these to you but no, i wouldn't be so daring and direct. Whenever i feel like talking to you, overtime i tried not to because maybe thats what you want. Thats probably the best for us. Feeling miserable but i hope i will let it go soon.