Hello readers , its been long since I had updated my blog , was actually quite busy with homeworks and camp. Camp was definitely awesome , its like really second best camp compared to obs , it reminds of days with magellan . Group 7 , definitely ain't a perfect group but to me , they are like the best bunch of cute kids that made me laugh , made me really pissed and made me enjoy camp most importantly . Ain't only the kids , but the leaders and the instructors . Sigh just hope that I could really go back to the camp so I wouldn't be feeling sad and stressed up all day now.
Ever since o level results released , my stress level has increased to 80% . Im just so afraid of my o level , just by thinking of it can motivate me from using phone to do homework . Looking back at my past years results , it sucks to the core , I just hope by putting all efforts in studies could help me get good results . #crossfinger
And everything seems so different now . I finally realised everything last Thursday night . I realised I have no one by my side , literally no one . Yes , I have my bestfriend but she's not there when I need her , either busy or she was sad too . Also my best bud but it just feels weird to tell him everything , feels really awkward . When I am upset , I just hope theres someone who actually bother to ask whether I'm okay without telling them like hey I'm sad , comfort me . But hah sadly there is no one . Thats when I finally found out I got no one to talk to when I swallowed everything down too much . Tears probably my best listener now , I don't know what to do with all these problems . Family , hah , feel really left out when im back to any home . I thought maybe I can feel more comfortable after all when I'm back home but then nope , even more sad . I miss having someone to talk to , where is Nayab , I miss her😔 2014 , it could be a really bad year , all the feelings are back and now I got no one by my side . So nothing stays.
