Friday, June 19, 2015

总感觉自己变得不一样了
我好像为自己设了好多不同的面具
面对朋友,疯疯癫癫的自己
面对家人,时时刻刻笑着的自己
面对陌生人,开朗的自己
又有何人想过我内心也许是很悲观,很内向,宁愿把所有秘密藏在心里,也不跟任何人提起任何一个字
我也想把所有事情吐出来,但我怕
我怕没有人会听我说
但我更怕的是自己的信心,因为我始终说不出口
每一次,我很希望自己是一点都不敏感的人,有话就脱口而出,但我却不是,所有话之前一定是考虑别人会做何感想
每一次,我希望自己可以更乐观,像表面上一样,但其实我都会往悲观的方面想,因为不是觉得自己很可怜,只是好像习惯了,对自己真的一点信心也没有
每一次,我希望我不用说话,也有人可以懂我,但我没有
我希望自己可以试着相信人,因为有时对着自己好朋友,关系很好的朋友,心里的话也一样藏着。
我不知道自己可以撑到几时,但真的我需要发泄
读书的鸭梨是大的,对着自己的梦想,我有点迷茫,更多的是惭愧,因为好像自己根本没有努力往上,还在原地踏步。别人家都有其它艺术天分,而自己什么都没有,却什么也没有做,对着自己,真的失望,但我却不知道该怎么走下去。
飞碟,我真的很喜欢,但我知道自己也没有天分,只能靠后天的努力,但不知道会不会撑下去,真的怕自己到最后,什么都失去了。

Wednesday, January 14, 2015

Great start of the year 2015

Heyyyy I'm back after like a few months of fighting against the pressure of doing well and getting the o's result . It wasn't an easy period for all of us , we have to like mug all the time , like some lifeless people that only know how to study . But most importantly , luckily its all over and now its another whole new period !!! Actually i was hoping all of us could get the results that we all wanted but in the end ,  there were still some disappointment where some of them are really sad and we can't even do anything to actually help them . you know the feeling of being helpless , yes it sucks a lot . Sigh really do hope that they can help themselves by thinking positively in a way that it actually might lead them to a better life. But I'm also happy for people who had actually gotten good results or the kind of results they wished for all these while . I mean it don't have to be very good but as long as all of us know we had already given our best , it really doesn't matter for now . O level really don't determine anything because everyone can be successful in different way. I know how it means to all of us but we can't really do anything so why not just enjoy the last moment 



   No more talking about studies , and here's the holiday yayyyy. straight after our last paper , we actually went to eat korean buffet at united square . It was awesome because of the good food and definitely the good companion , impurities yay. Oh wait is it company or companion ? HAHAHA anw they are the ones that supported and motivated me these two years . I didn't regret knowing them because they are like the best of the best . I still remember during the first day of staying in 3E1'13 , i was so boring because there was no one fooling around like 2E1'12 people . It was super quiet and i couldn't take it . I was like : HELL , HOW AM I GOING TO SURVIVE TILL MY O'S END . But tadah i survived because i have them
They are my favourite girls as always and i hope our friendship will really last till the end no matter what . Ohya , back to united square ! That day was filled with laughters , especially when they actually took photos with the cute rubbish bins while people walked past us . They probably just find us really weird people , them i mean ;) AND HERE'S THE PHOTOS YAY.




The food are really good and you all should give it a try !! 
Then , the next thing up was class chalet and guides chalet . Though i couldn't stay for both and i had fun , like lots of fun !! Class chalet was fun with mahjong , karaoke and of cus the bbq !!! 




Then guides chalet . Wait it wasn't a chalet for me , rather an outing , a bbq outing . And that day was really torturing because we were waiting for the rain to stop . But even if its raining , the room was filled with lots of laughters , music and of cus our nonsense hehehe

Then prom yayyyy. 








Thats the end of november yay . And i actually work as a part timer in ajisen . The work was so fun but yet as the time goes by , its getting more boring and the feeling of quitting is getting stronger . Yep omg , i don't want to go work right now so badly.

Anw , the next outing that impurities had was to sentosa , in fact silos beach which is more specific . It was so fun , not just by playing but of cus the presence of theirs . Outing will always be very fun with them , the location don't really matters .




Thats the end of my 2014 because i actually celebrate my new year's eve by working zzz.  Anw , hope everyone is having fun and living happily in the whole new year .